I was never sure if I would find my calling. I’m a multi-passionate Gemini and I’ve always fluttered from project to project, rarely finishing anything. Throw in some ADHD, overthinking and anxiety and you can see why I was unsure.
I was okay with this. I still had passion and approached each dream project with enthusiasm.
But my ultimate dream was this big hazy mess. I had an idea of what I wanted, but I was unsure how to get there. This is so common. We see those huge amazing dreams, but the path is covered in leaves, spiders and all of your biggest fears. The dream appears to be unreachable so you content yourself with small daily dreams.
The thing about a calling, though, is that you can’t deny it. You can’t push it away. It’s always there, tugging on your heart, pushing you toward it.
Even when you don’t know what your calling is, something is pulling you toward it. I wish I could explain that feeling. That inexplicable pull. I didn’t know what it was until I suddenly knew: my calling is to love.
I’ve always had a deep level of love. I often say that love is my religion because I truly think above all else that is what we, as mortal humans, can do.
But, my calling is something more. My calling is more than loving and spreading the love. I am called to empower women to embrace self-love.
Self-love is one of the most difficult, yet most beneficial loves that exists. It is easier to seek romantic love from another than to feel love for ourselves, especially with the way society shapes us.
In high school, my friends and I began to call ourselves Warrior Queens as a reminder to have confidence in relationships. Soon, we realized that this confidence and sense of worth were pivotal in living our lives deeply. We couldn’t be truly happy without this confidence and knowing what we deserve. We began to understand that self-love was important.
For years, I continued to struggle with what Warrior Queen truly was. In my mind it was all encompassing – it was living compassionately, with grace for ourselves and others around us. Being a Warrior Queen is all of those (and more).
This past year I struggled with Warrior Queen. My original dreams didn’t seem to fit any longer, but I couldn’t see the path. It was right in front of me, but my view was cloudy. And then one day it wasn’t.
One day there were the words before me: empowering young women to embrace self-love.
Those were the words I had been trying to say for years. Just like that, my heart was alight with this burning fire that I had never felt. I breathe self-love.
My anxiety is at the lowest point it has ever been my desire to help others at its highest.
I want to build women up, show them their light and show them how to see that light every day despite any and all hardships.
This is how I am called to change the world. Have you found your calling?
Written by, Raewyn
Raewyn is the founder of Be a Warrior Queen, a movement empowering women to embrace self-love. She’s also a new wife and mother to a baby girl, learning to navigate these new waters while maintaining her sense of self. The Warrior Queen Movement began in 2006 among Raewyn’s group of friends. Always having a passion for writing and feminism, Raewyn’s posts empower and inspire.